Before I became a mother, I had a very limited understanding of Mother’s Day. It was a day to buy my mom and grandmas a card. A day our family would attend church and then eat a meal together ((one that the older ladies in our family cooked)). It was really just another holiday most of the time.
When I became a mom myself, I looked forward to all the handprints and Mother’s Day cards the kids made in Sunday School. The big toothless grin pictures snapped by the teacher and placed on the project always melted my heart. The funny questions they would ask my kids, “How old is your mom?” and the even funnier answers the child inevitably gave. Yes, each of those things made Mother’s Day special.
It's not Mother’s Day this Sunday—don’t panic!
However, it is Bereaved Mother’s Day. The day where we recognize all the moms who have had to hand a child back to heaven.
For some of them they only held their child as a brief dream, buried deep in their womb. An expectation that turned bitter as the child was born straight into heaven.
Others, like me, were blessed with a few years here on earth. Years filled with handprints, skinned knees, nursery rhymes, rocking chairs, and baby kisses.
Some moms were given the school years, the prom, graduation, maybe even college. There are moms who get to experience their child’s marriage, even the birth of grandchildren.
A few moms get to keep their children late in life. A time when the child should now be caring for the mother in her older age.
No matter what age you walk your child to heaven, whether it was an expected loss or a total surprise, the pain is the same. The loss is great, like a part of your own self has died. Each one of us mothers have regrets, doubts, and despair. We desperately miss our child that has gone on before us and long to see them again. I’m so grateful I believe in a loving God holding my girl close and that I know I will join her in heaven someday.
Every day that Millie is away, is one day I am closer to seeing her again. Today I am 1023 days closer to that moment. What a day that will be!
***Ironically, these precious photos were given to me on this day in 2020--before I knew about Bereaved Mother's Day. They still thrill my heart and bring tears. I'm so incredibly grateful for the photographer who captured them. She gave me a treasure that she will never fully understand. ***
~Telling Christ’s story {Because of Millie}
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☆｡･: *:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ ｡･:*:･ﾟ★ I still believe in Millie’s Miracle ☆｡･:*:･ﾟ Hebrews 11:1 ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ ……….︵‿︵‿୨☆୧‿︵‿︵………
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